It makes sense; but I'm still not sure it is as simple as that.
Often the "severity" of mental illness is judged on how well that person continues to function. Sometimes we can be made to feel that if you can still get out of bed and get dressed in the morning then we must be ok; regardless of actual feelings, or how much of a struggle getting up can actually be. If we can do that then we are fine.
Why?
If I chose to I could sit around all day in bed and refuse to get up, refuse to get a shower, refuse to eat. Very quickly that would get me sectioned and a diagnosis. But my feelings and emotions would be no different.
Your GP speaks sense. Embrace the depression diagnosis as a way to help the professionals treat you, rather than an all consuming aspect of your personality. You are you. Many people may have depression. But still none of them are the same as you, or experience exactly the same feelings. Everyone is different, even if they have the same label.
You are not a fraud. And somewhere deep down you know that. Your feelings are valid. And if they are depression feelings then they are still as equally valid as anyone elses experience of depression.
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