two hundred, thirty six days, seven hours and five minutes.
"How do you say goodbye so easily? You seem so undisturbed and focused, it almost seems like you never cared at all." I turn my gaze to look at you, how could you think I never cared? "It's just easier not to feel anything. Everything dies someday. Just need to accept that, and live for today." You look away from me, the tears staining your cheeks "I only wish I had your strength" In truth I never wanted this, to feel numb when I need to feel pain. "I wish you did too." i look back over towards the casket as it is lifted and carried away, another friend to bury. Another open grave.
We sit side by side in the car and your hand finds it's way to mine and I catch your eye "Promise me i'll never have to say goodbye?" I want to promise but I know it would be a lie "i can't, someday everything dies.." You turn from me and sigh but grip tighter onto my hand "Then promise you'll never say goodbye to me, only see you later, goodbyes are for forever." I run my thumb across your knuckles and lean my head back against the seat "I promise."
There's no easy way to avoid the things that come.
But some steps you just need guidance and we make it through.
Guide me home. Straight back to you.
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