I must say that what you wrote is sooo familiar to me. i have been si free for a little over a year now, but lately i've been stressed and i have been thinking about it almost everyday. n ot just thinking about the subject, but thinking about picking up the habit again. it is scary, but i think it is jsut part of the process, as sara said. i think, for all of us, with time those feelings of wanting to revert back, will eventually fade away. the temptaions, however, when we are under pressures, will always be there i think. almost eveerything you have been saying rings true to me, and i think many others. my advice would b e to keep on trucking and keep yourself busy with other things, writing, singing drawing, whatever helped you to recover.
luvz and hugs
emz
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