I hear you. It sounds as though everything has become a hell of a lot harder since all the changes have happened in your life. Change is hard, and safety is difficult because we have the opportunity to feel and that can be overwhelming and so scary. Sometimes I think my emotions will kill me because they are so big, I honestly cannot understand why I don't explode! I understand what you mean about being sick of trying, there are many times when I am so tired of trying and get so angry at people for expecting me to cope when I feel I can't.
Is there anyway you can get some more therapy sessions over the next few weeks? Keep reaching out for support on here, in therapy, and through support helplines. Maybe that can be your scaffolding which can protect you whilst everything feels as though it is crashing around you.
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