That's a hard one...
In some ways no because I've met some amazing people through here, even my girlfriend, and they are actually decent friends who are there for me and will visit me and things when they are able (unlike my other 'school' friends) and will completely understand whatever I'm feeling and stuff. I have also learnt so much that I would never know if I never self harmed and I appreciate how people feel and things more.
And in some ways yes because I now have so much scar tissue on my arm that lidocane has pretty much no effect and I useually wind up needing stitches. Which then brings about the whole going to a & e thing too which can be more hassle that it's worth. Also because it's never fun to look at your own inside anatomy... and if I go around in shorts (that was not "planned" if you want to say) or short sleeves the chances are that people will give me some very strange looks or ask me very awkward questions, I mean how can you explain to a child that it's because you cut yourself? I must have also put my parents through a hell of alot and no parent wants their son or daughter to get so unhappy or depressed that they actively start destroying themselves.
Depends how you look at it reallly...
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