Originally Posted by
Stellata
Why can't you say that here? What scares you? I sense that it's an abusive experience you're describing yourself as a child went through?
No I don't have any abusive experience. I...well....EDIT: Sorry too much.
I'm the glad the anger is the first step because it feel as though that has been my entire life - anger. In therapy i've come to learn more about the anger and that it is a protection so i don't beat myself up as much as i used too.
Originally Posted by
Rosy
My little part is in a lot of pain, but I don't know how to listen to her. When I look at her, it hurts. I don't want to feel that pain. I don't feel like I'll be able to function any more if I look at that pain.
Maybe you need to feel angry? I never really feel anger, but lately I've been realising that I have a lot to feel angry about, that I never felt angry about at the time... Maybe one day it will come out...
No i don't know how to listen either. I very much understand how you feel about that fear of not being able to function if you looked....i wish I could help. I do need to be angry because being angry is part of the person i've created, it makes me self independent and strong and keeps people far away from me. I don't like people close to me. I don't have anything to feel angry about strangely enough, i always used to think i was anger personified but i think i'm more.....sensitive? I show the reverse of what i am. I cannot imagine not being angry, it is my defense against the pain and sadness.