I understand what you mean about getting trapped *there*. It's a sort of twilight zone. A 'planet' of it's own. The past in the present. It can feel so chaotic and overwhelming. And terrifying, annihilating. Because so much of your sense of self was/felt annihilated Back Then.
I also totally get how it is not a conscious choice.
Partly it's a trap of repeating, and trauma's terrifying legacy, but also even within that it's the ache for resolution and healing.
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