To everyone,
I want 2 say thank u so much for the overwhelming amount of replies I have got 2 this thread. I value all your opinions so much and it really helps to hear the views of people who have been in and kno what its like- good and bad. Thank you all, u dont have any idea how much it means! I definately want 2 avoid sectioning, so if they announced they were going 2 section me if I didnt agree 2 go in, I'd probably bow my head and agree. I am still very reluctant 2 agree 2 admission. I cannot imagine getting through anythg without self harm, I think it would be like putting a wild animal into a cage. I'd like 2 believe I do want 2 try and b better some day I guess, but @ the min, I need 2 damage myself. I really really do and I dont want 2b forced not 2. Sorry that sounds really bad. I am seeing my social worker 2moro and then my doctor. Im feeling very scared about it. I thought I might print off some of yr replies 2 discuss with her (anonmously of course) if u dont mind. Please say if u do!
One thing that has really terrified me if the person who said they were bullied by the other patients. I have suspected cPTSD as a result of a relentless and severe campaign of bullying @ sch and I know I couldnt handle anythg like that happening. I also would b scared of how other people would react 2 my admission- I live in a kind of place where everybody knows everybody elses business and I am very good @ hiding whats been goin on with me. Like non f my work/voluntry work colleagues kno or anythg how ill I am. And Im kinda scared that they'll make nasty comments and b really judgemental.
Also my friend went in2 a unit as I said above- shes been there 4 10months and b4 she went in, she was a bit like how I am. In fact I'd say I'd been worse than her- I'd been 2 A and E a few times and stuff but snce she went in she got worse and worse- last week 6 A and E admissions and that was a place that was supposed 2 b keeping her safe!!! I dont want it 2 make me worse.
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