He sounds like a really caring T. I know you found the whole session really anxiety provoking but you survived it! yay! ...And not only did you survive it but it sounds like he responded to your letter really well as you felt as thought he was more understanding by asking you questions. That sounds really important. I'm struck by how respectful he was of your letter and if I extrapolated that out, how respectful he was of your inner thoughts and feelings.
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byemebyeme
He asked me why I decided now. Why I decided to give this to him now...I wasn't really sure, besides I'm fed up and frustrated wasting time every week.
I think that sounds like a good enough reason to give him the letter. Maybe as well you are starting to trust him more?
Originally Posted by
byemebyeme
But he did ask things about why I don't speak up around him, or other people, and I did flat out tell him I was scared.
"Scared of what?"
"ummmm...people knowing too much?"
I don't even know why...ak. That's helpful, huh?
The best thing about therapy is you aren't being examined and you don't need to know all the answers beforehand....personally in my case, if there was an 'answer' it would change between every session anyway! This may be an interesting topic to discuss further with your T.
I'm sorry you felt so crappy after giving the letter but I hope you also feel proud of taking a risk and sticking with it. That is a big deal! I think it is fantastic your T not only heard what you said in your session but offered further support for the intervening 2 weeks. He sounds like a really respectful, supportive T.