hey just here for a bit to vent.. im reeaally overwhelmed with everything.. i mean 3 of us in my head ..wth?! feel crazy like i belong in a padded room or something. trying to remain calm and handle it in an adult and rational way but its not easy at all.
then Sadie talking to mom yesterday just flipped me out and then finding out she had been around since Highschool..omg..
Today has flown by.. tomorrow monday a whole 5 long days of 8 hr days at work.. so afraid Sadie will get pissed and tell someone off and get us fired and i wont be able to stop her.
if that happens we wont have ANY income that means we will lose everything and be homeless and i cant let that happen!!
****.. something really did happen when i was little.. was hoping the memories' bits were just parts of a bad dream i had when little. ugghh..
anxiety anxiety anxiety anxiety.. overwhelmed scared and terrified.. cnat cope with this right now..
im going back in..at least i can distract some and ignore my adult reality in there..
not sure about this week at work though.
sorry for whining..
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