*wraps arms around Aimee and cuddles* you, my darling, are an amazing person. You are in no way flawed in the 'fatally' way. Any imperfections are the things that make you unique and they make you you. That very person I see as amazing.
It can be incredibly hard to face those moments when we grow to hate ourselves for needing the Drs, Psychs and any other form of help. There is a cultural perception that that somehow means something is wrong. In reality though, all it means is that you need help and that in itself, is one of the most human parts of us. Yes, it is an illness and one which makes us sometimes act in the complete opposite of logic and knowledge or experience - but that action does not in anyway make the composite parts of you flawed - it is simply the illness playing out. In much the same way as sneezing is a cold playing out.
You are, as I know you - Amazingly strong and have come a long way during your time on RYL. There is nothing wrong with feeling moments of doubt or fragility amongst that. If anything, it is natural to find ourselves examinining and criticising elements of ourselves more than we would anyone else. We spend more time with ourselves and are less able to step away from the emotions 'of the moment' to view the bigger picture.
I know that my words will not change much, as I think a part of you already knows this. I just think that sometimes, we all need reminding.
*hugs*
Roiben x
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