ok, what you feel and what people think with grief often differ so greatly. if people havent experienced that level of loss, they just cant comprehend what its like to carry around with you all the time.
i often try to explain to people, when they tell me, and they do, all the time "time heals all wounds" or "it will be fine in time" and etc,i tell them no, its not it. it will always be the same burden, but I myself with become stronger. its like lifting weights. for a while, the 2Kg weight might be near unbareable to lift, but in time, my muscles will grow. the weight doesnt lessen, but i become stronger, and in becoming stronger, the weight is easier to hold.
but you know your own strength. dont start lifting weights too fast or you will stretch a muscle, and could really hurt yourself...
just take your time, let your strength grow.
i hope that made sense...
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