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I am shortly going to be starting counselling for abuse (not next Tuesday, but the Tuesday afterwards). I have met with the person who is doing it 4 times and she seems nice (twice for non related things, I later found out that is what she does).

I was wondering, if anyone else here tried or have had counselling for sexual abuse? How did you find it? I was told by the person who did it, that some of the other women she sees, and not to worry if it takes ages to open up. Also she said that before, she had sat there for half a hour in complete silence. Some days that they don't feel like talking at all. Which is good thing, because I know that given the way I have reacted with counsellors before (I haven't seen any counsellors for that issue, but other issues, such as my mental health), I cant just open up.

I am slightly nervous about the appointment, although it was totally my decision to do it. I suspect I will be worse the day before and just before my appointment though. I have also bought a self help book (I saw it in the library, but I was too scared to borrow it, so I ordered it online), but it hasnt arrived yet.

I feel that at the moment, that this will be one of the toughest things that I will be doing. I am fed up of being screwed up, so if this helps me being less screwed up, that is good. If not, at least I have given it a go, and I can either try with someone else, or later on in my life.

So any comments would be helpful.

I only put the trigger label on just in case.