Shine - Feeling fat sucks, doesn't it?
I'm sure you're not actually fat though, you may just feel a bit bloated, but it'll pass, don't worry (: whenever I feel bloated Ayka wants to purge but I stop her, and it passes.
I know what you mean about the suicidal feelings, they suck too ): the thing with self harm and suicide urges is that you have to acknowledge that they're there, because if you try and block them out then they come back stronger and harder to pass.
--------------------------------
I'm still feeling rubbish... My Mum had a huge go at me last night, said I wasn't helping myself and that she didn't know how to help me, wondered what the point of my therapy was, didn't know how to cope with me and said that sometimes she feels like she wants to go to sleep and never wake up because of me.
She's apologised loads, but it still really hurts and now I don't trust her at all and can't look her in the eye.
And I just keep wondering why I can't get a boyfriend... I've been single for about 2 years, and it's really getting to me... Am I just that incapable?
|