Katie.
I can't really say much more than *happydays* suggested.
You ARE getting better. You know that. Try not to worry too much about how much of that is visible to other people. After all the most important thing is the changes within yourself and these others might not see.
I can imagine it will feel quite isolating being in the flat on your own. Which part of the day do you think the loneliness will hurt the most?
Try and plan things to do for those times.
I understand the feelings of sadness. And how overwhelming they can be. I used to feel "world sadness" sometimes. Where I would be sad something as specific as the tree that was cut down to make my desk, or as general as poverty. I know how it feels to be sad about the past, especially when you start to think how things could have been. It becomes hard when you stop blaming your parents because you start to feel sad for them too and so the sadness reaches back for generations.
Don't bury those feelings. They are valid and important. But do continue to work through them, in your journal, in poetry. However you wish to express it.
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