Hey Katie,
I don't really know what to say but I'm gonna try and say something of use, because I wanted you to know I read this and I hear you.
I don't really understand the work thing. But in answer to your questions you put at the end of that bit, try not to run before you can walk, sorta thing. I hope that doesn't sound bad, its great you are getting better, I'm proud of all the work you are putting in to do so. However try not to hurry your recovery for the sake of how people "see you". I personally if I worked alongside you would see you ad strong, and a fighter. Try and keep your chin up, you CAN do the meeting and then it'll be over for another 6 months :) easy to say I know.
With your flatmate away can you maybe write a list of things you could do with your time so you aren't sitting around, maybe distract from being lonely. I don't know what hours you work, but maybe one day go to a nice park, another go for a coffee somewhere, another buy yourself a book/dvd/cd. Even things like have a bath, or rearrange your room, or do food shopping. Small tasks which fill your days up maybe.
It is sad what you are working on in therapy, however once you have worked on it, its one more hurdle you have climbed. Give yourself time and allow yourself to be sad. If you bury that sadness more issues will occur. Do what is best for you to outlet that sadness. And grieve for the things you have lost/relisations you have had. Maybe do something visual like a poem/painting or something of how it feels. Just an idea.
Anyways I hope you are ok, stay strong. x
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