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1. I can't concentrate when there's music on in the background.
2. Despite this, I always put music on whenever I'm about to start something (type something up/read an article online.)
3. I still have my Download festival wristband on from last week, and had my Sonisphere one from last year on for about 6 months before I took it off.
4. I like to watch tv and movies with the subtitles on, even though my hearing is fine.
5. I listen to way more male artists/bands than female ones.
6. I spend far too many nights like this- indoors on my own when I should be out having fun.
7. I hate being the first one to start a conversation on msn, and always wait for the other person to start the conversation- even if I really want to talk to them, I just get paranoid that they won't actually want to talk to me, and I'll feel like I'm pestering them.
8. I laugh when I'm nervous.
9. I get disappointed when my phone says I have a new unread text, and then it turns out to just be from my service provider about some crap offer.
10. I wish people would text me more, I like getting nice little messages for no reason.
11. I never have any credit in my phone. (Probably why people never bother texting me, ha)
12. I feel really self indulgent writing these things, like, what, do I expect people to actually read what I've wrote or even care?
13. I check facebook too much, despite knowing nothing ever happens on it
14. I think I've finally found a hair colour I actually like, after dying my hair for years and loads of different, hopefully I won't get sick of it.
15. I like sitting in the dark- despite not even being able to really see what I'm typing right now. It's peaceful sitting in a dim room.
16. I'm going to be an auntie in November, and one of my best friends is expecting then too, I worry I'm not going to be good with either baby.
17. I read far too much into the dreams I have when I'm asleep. To the point of actually changing my plans according to them. I put too much faith and worry into them. Then get upset when it doesn't go to plan.
18. I genuinely feel people would hate me if they knew what I was really like.
19. I over-analyse absolutely everything- to my detriment most of the time.
20. I like to try and use 'big' words sometimes, because it makes me feel smart, because I know I'm not really.
21. I'm scared of the future, I sometimes secretly wish things would mess up for me even more, so Iwouldn't have any reason to fight any more, and could just give up.
22. It's one of my ambitions to see Canada and America and travel all over the world.
23. I use quotes to express how I feel too much of the time. I think it's cause I can hide behind them, like, it wasn't me who originally said it, so it doesn't hold as much weight, so I can say it, without being too concerned about how people interperet it, if they find it negative I can just say 'Oh, it's just a quote, I don't really feel that ****ed up.' It's my way of letting people know I'm not quite alright without saying it directly. Same goes for song lyrics. (That doesn't make much sense, but I can't quite put it into the right words :s)
24. I'm getting concerned that this post is too long, and people will think I'm obnoxious for taking up space when I'm not an active poster, or very useful to the site.
25. I wish I could be more real and open around people, espcially friends, there's always a degree of reservation, I fear I'll say something stupid or offensive and piss them off.
26. I'd like nothing more than a quiet evening with a couple of close friends, just chilling and being in each others' company, maybe watch a movie so there wouldn't be any awkward silences.
27. I have the ability to find humour in a lot of situations that really don't warrant it.
28. People who can make me laugh are invaluable.
29. Hate it when people over rely on the use of smilies/emoticons on msn, and use 'lol' as a response, even though I can be guilty of this too.
30. Determined to get to number 35, hate leaving things half done.
31. I don't seem to be able to condense sentences, and start far too many sentences with 'I'. Self-centered much? haha
32. Too sensitive for my own good.
33. Want to accomplish (sp) something good.
34. Don't have spell check on this pc so I'm going to have to go through it a million times, no doubt I'll miss loads of things, but I like being thorough, and good spelling and grammer are something I like, even in texts, and online.
35. I feel much less bored after doing this, good distraction.