[~*Dare to Dream*~]

Last Monday was interesting. I was at work and I went down to check the river levels as it had been raining and I was supposed to be taking a group out. The rivers set back from the centre on a public footpath but at 9am its always pretty quiet down there. Sat by the gates there was this old man and he was just sat there with his bike in frount of him on the grass. He was talking to me making not much sense but it was obvious that there was something wrong with him. He hadn't seen me at this point and i started to panic a little bit, loads of stuff running through my head, I was feeling pretty vunerable and paranoid... To cut the story down ended up phoning the paramedics, he was a bit of an alcoholic and had taken a cocktail of over the counter medicines, Having difficulty breathing, talking about dieing and how to would be a nice place to rest peacefully by the river. He also asked me if i could find some pretty bit titted blonde that he could **** before he died. When the paramedics arrived he volunteered the information that he had knife on his person.

We had to keep to bike at the centre as he went in the ambulance. He picked his bike up on monday. I wasn't around but he spoke to my boss and said to pass on a message to me to say thanks and that he probably would still be there if i hadn't bothered with him and he was glad that i helped him.

It was horrible. I don't want to have to deal with that again. It was so triggering, i had the choice though, and I put him first and put myself in a potentially dangerous environment. I feel vunerable enough around people I trust let alone any one else. Should I really be that bothered by it?