i feel so pathetic, theres no reason for me to SI. i've got a supportive family that encourage me with everything, i've got friends that listen and help me out, i get good grades, i'm not popular but not ignored either. so why do i feel the need to cut?
i'm scared of people but act confident in company,
i'm scared of making bad impressions but act like its not important
i'm scared that everyone is looking at me but act like i couldnt give a damn.
but because of this people think i'm attention seeking and making it up.
i havent cut in three weeks, but i've just been on holiday and i know people have seen the scars on my legs, and its just made me want to do it so much more. i havent SI in a few weeks (? not counting) but the urge is so strong, i'm just thinking of the realease i'll get and then i think about all the things i wrote and that i have no reason and that just makes feel guilty which makes me want to do it more, its just one big vicious cycle and i really dont know what to do
sorry for my rambling
