Dave .... Sorry that I havent been in touch with you recently, but I'm taking a bit of a break from RYL right now. But seeing this thread made me want to come back so I could post some words of support for you in this thread.
I'm very sorry to hear that you are struggling, and that things are bad in your world right now. You spend so much of your time supporting and caring for the other members here at RYL, but I rarely see you reaching out for help for yourself .... so I'm glad that you've got a friend in Amy and that she made this support thread just for you - coz you really do DESERVE some help and support for yourself Dave!
You are a wonderful friend to so many people here .... so its very sad to hear that such a caring person like yourself is struggling to try to keep his head above water right now. But its good for other people to have the opportunuity to give back all of that care, support and friendship that you've been giving selflessly to so many people here at RYL ..... its your turn to sit back and be on the receiving end of some support for a change, so we can hold your hand and help you through this very rough time in your life.
Please dont give up fighting or give up hope that things will be better for you soon. I know its difficult to see any light at the end of the tunnel when you are caught up in depression, hopelessness, and having painful memories of traumatic events from the past. Its tough ... believe me I know .... but you are tough too! You survived those awful times from the past, and you can also survive these moments in the present that also try to drag you down and give you grief.
Dont let those bullies win! Inside of you Dave, there is a part of you that is untouched by past traumas ... and this part will help you to survive and triumph in the long run, despite these difficult dark moments that you expereicne now. And each time you manage to cope and survive these difficult feelings, you will get stronger and stronger .... so much stronger than ANY of the bullies that you've ever faced!
I know that it doesnt feel like it right now, but you are a strong person Dave, and you can get through this rough time. You've managed to survive some really awful moments in the past, and also the resulting depression and trauma ..... and not only have you survived, but you've gone on to help others in similar situations! You've not let these past events or your depression beat you, but you've continue to fight it with all of your strength ... and that makes you a much stronger person than all of the bullies in the world!
Unfortuntely though, these tough moments in your life are all a part of the healing process .... some days it will be worse than others, but Dave ... you MUST hang on! Dont ever give up fighting! Right now you might need to lean on your friends a little more than usual, but hun - that's totally okay! How many times have you been there for other people? Well - now its time to let your friends be there for YOU! We all have times where we need just a little more help from our friends, and at RYL, we can all stick together and help each other get through these bad times ..... coz together we can be strong.
Take care Dave ..... you are such a caring, sensitive person who doesnt deserve this pain. Please let us help you. xxx
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