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I think i'm better
i have had a crazy year. been in and out of hospital with schizophrenia but now things finally seem to be on the up. It confuses me so much though because a part of me actually misses the psychosis. I miss being able to stay up all night. I miss the constant taunting of the voices. It was a noise and now it's too quiet.
The thing is is i am on injections now and they obviously seem to be working but i'm so tempted to stop them just to see what it was like before. I've almost forgotten what life was like and i want the old me back. I used to sleep maybe two hours a night, now with the injections it's more like ffourteen.
Also i know with getting better comes more responsibility. I have to do things like find work and get on with day to day tasks. I'm not ready for this.
I dont' know what i want from this post. just i guess, reassurance?
jen x
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