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k26 · 20-05-2010, 10:40 PM

its been 7 months since the last time i tried to commit suicide.
its the longest period in over 2 years that iv lasted without trying to kill myself.
7 months ago i was sectioned after taking a major OD...things have been better and i hadnt thought about it so much, its the best id felt in years.
but...not the idea of OD'ing or doing something life thretening has been occupying my mind, constantly.
things have taken a turn for the worst. and i cant cope.
i cant.
no matter how positive iam, im breaking down left right and centre.
it is too much.
a lot has happened the past few months and i thought i was coping with it...i didnt really feel anything.
its hit me all at once and i cant do it.
im not really seeing anyone anymore just kind of phone and make an appointment if i need to but...i dont want to talk to them, i dont want them to know im doing bad, i dont want to worry people and i dont want help, i just want to disappear..quickly.

20-05-2010, 10:40 PM	#1
k26 The darkest skies have the brightest stars. Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Scotland I am currently:	its been 7 months.. its been 7 months since the last time i tried to commit suicide. its the longest period in over 2 years that iv lasted without trying to kill myself. 7 months ago i was sectioned after taking a major OD...things have been better and i hadnt thought about it so much, its the best id felt in years. but...not the idea of OD'ing or doing something life thretening has been occupying my mind, constantly. things have taken a turn for the worst. and i cant cope. i cant. no matter how positive iam, im breaking down left right and centre. it is too much. a lot has happened the past few months and i thought i was coping with it...i didnt really feel anything. its hit me all at once and i cant do it. im not really seeing anyone anymore just kind of phone and make an appointment if i need to but...i dont want to talk to them, i dont want them to know im doing bad, i dont want to worry people and i dont want help, i just want to disappear..quickly.