Hm good question. I had one episode when I was like five or six and I saw a knife laying out somewhere in my house and I was like "Hm, what would that feel like?" So I made it look like an accident and of course back then I didn't realize what I had just done but now I realize what I did. And that may have something to do with what I became. I first started at eleven continuously, I think it was. But, to be honest, that was all for attention. It wasn't until I turned twelve that I realized how hurting myself could, back then, help me with my problems and how I should hide and it all of that stuff. I mainly cut or hit myself (I can really only remember one bad hitting episode) but from the years of eleven to thirteen the cuts didn't scar bad, they turned the color of my skin and now I can only see some cuts from those years. It got a lot worse the older I got, but I think that's the case for a lot of people. I didn't know how bad what I was doing was when I was eleven until I met this girl and she did it and she got in a lot of trouble, so I learned to hide it. She taught me how to hide it but eventually my methods of hiding it became obvious and my friends and my mom would know when I cut myself because of that. Yeah, I guess that's all that I have to say that's of any use.
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