[mouse in darkness]

I am getting really annoyed. Am not getting any where. I got rejected from the job I applies for. They had an interesting question on the form I had to fill out befor I could do the interview. It was do you suffer any medical cinditions inclusive mental illness. Any false or misleading information will result in instant dismissal. Well if that doesn't smell of siscrimination I will be buggeed. The idiot doing the interview had his head so far up his bum that he rquired a 12 foot tooth brush to clean his teeth. More or less said, when my housemate found out who I went for the job interview with she said a few choice words after they fired her for having a mental illness after she started employment with them.


Am going to check out a new place to live in on sunday if I don't get it the hostel I live in will be transferring me to another long term hostel, in the same suberb. At least I won't have to worry about stuff going missing or people coming and going like they change thier undies.


I am feel like I am loosing the battle. I am paraniod to the piont I can't leave the stupid house. The only thing keeping SI under control is the fact that I am determined to prove anyone wrong.


I am running down a ravine it is dark and the walls are closing and. I am scared. This place has been traversed many times I know every rock sound and corner of this dark desolate place. Please someone turn on a torch I can no longer see the light at the end of this desolate forlorn place.


The house is lonly and cold it feels like there is no life within its despaired walls. I hope the girls will be able to get a good book from the library. At least I will have something to cheat my own mind with. It is a place best won through clever trickery and tall tails that occupy the imagination keeping its cruel taste for trapping us together in another world.

Sorry for the rant.