Thanks Bleedingdragon your words mean a lot, its just even if i could forget the past and not worry about my empty present my future is still looking bleak, the government funding/training is not looking as great as I'd anticipated. Iv tried seeing my local doctor who said there's not much she can do, she could't supply me drugs as the're for people with more of a chemical imbalance, although im hurting hard she says that's normal for someone who's been through a lot, she did give me a number for a counsellor but they want money i don't have
I always cry when i think about my nephew, he has cerebral palsy and life to him is a lot worse than what mine is. I have a perfectly good working body and find it extremely unfair. He had sore feet today so i soaked them in 1 of mums saucepans, hope she doesn't find out lol. He looks like a little old man, he makes me cry but also smile a lot
Hope your ok, keeping shit bottled up isn't healthy, probly why i had a big release in the 1st post, i hear you on the sexuality thing for sure, thought i might have feelings of the same kind before, my dad would have killed me, at least i think he would, truth is you wont know till you've tried, and that would be scary, sweaty hands and butterfly's would be an understatement
Hope you and everyone else on this site are ok, hopefully the pic of my nephew will make some of you smile, it does for me