Hey :)
As from the replies you can probably see it's not at all uncommon, whether it be because of your shyness/personality, fear of rejection, lack of trust and so on.
I never used to be able to open up to my psychiatrist, but once i learnt to trust her, i started by writing in my journal and giving it to her to read in the session, to my writing it and reading it to her. It's a proccess.
I can definitely understand your loneliness, it's quite isolating isn't it?
I write almost everyday, from everyday stuff like 'went to literature class' to more emotionally based things. It can really help to write it out because then it's out on a page (or on your screen)- (which you may show to your therapist or Dr) and can feel less intense having written it all out.
Another thing I find very useful is grabbing a pencil or paint and just put whatever is building up inside out onto the canvas or paper. Don't think about it, don't plan it, just get whatever it is out. I find that is a good release for me, but not so much for communication..
It could be that when you are trying to communicate your emotions to people, as a defense mechanism the way you speak is altered, or they feelings are so intense that you can't be attached to them when you speak about them.
Do you see a therapist or psychiatrist?
|