The walls speak words even my soul wouldn't dare to recall. If only they had a mouth in which to whisper my secrets, would you be daring enough to listen?
Long ago it would seem we rested here alone. The wind drawn tightly into our knees as we kneel beside the window. Your hands across my shoulders and your face buried in my hair as you whispered into my ear 'what's wrong D?' i would stay silent and simply scribble a note, handing you the tiny book which states 'The secrets are within the walls' You squeeze my shoulders then turned my head with your fingertips looking down into the desolate dark corners of my soul 'If what you want me to know is in your walls, let down your guard.Please trust me D i'd never hurt you' I close my eyes because i knew it wasn't true.
Much as I close my eyes now next to the same window and think how it must have felt when you realized you were going to break that promise. Your bandana in my hand clutched tightly. Your arms around my neck again, but when i reach to hold you in return i go through you. This pain come everyday. Do you feel the pain too? To know all you love you could walk right through and what if when i finally join you, you no longer love me and turn a cold shoulder?
I'm so scared of what could be that I am afraid to be.
I'm staring out the window watching the clouds pass over the moon.The chill breeze enveloping me and your arms are about my neck. My chest filled with happiness as i set aside the telephone. Tommarrow brings us closer then today, and soon tommarrows will bring me the day you are finally in my arms. I love you Dollie.
'I love you, K. But i'm in love with her.'
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