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non existant
I just realised, that if I were do die, vanish ect, no one would know because there is nothing about me anywhere, I'm not remembered recorded photographed, I dont exist, I used to but I haven't for about 6 years now
I guess, I was looking through peoples myspace's and there are all these things about how much they love their friends and cant live without them, I'm not on any of them, they have photos of all their friends, again I dont exist, I just find it odd that in feeling invisible I have disappeared
I feel as if I am walking inside a dream. A dream that doesn't even belong to be. Everything is so distant and surreal, I honestly dont know the difference between fantasy, nightmare and memory anymore.
I used to think that I hated myself now I dont even know that, everything is just hollow and empty. I hide and I cry, I'm constantly scared. I try not to eat or sleep and try and keep up with school. I try, I'm trying really just I dont know how much longer I can or want to keep this up, there has to be an end sometime and someplace.
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