It is kind of all the time. Everytime I walk past a main road I want to just step out in front of it. Im just so tired. I first started self harming/feeling like this in 2007 when I joined this (I have since then changed accounts several times) so thats three years. Some people have been struggling alot longer and I reconise this. But three years of arguments, cutting, depression, drunkeness, drugs, sex is enough. I feel that if I can't get through this then I just want to give up, as im sick of struggling through life. Everything a small things goes right serveral things will go wrong and put me back to were I was to start off with and I just cannot deal with it much longer. I know life is unexepcted and stuff but I just want things to go right and STAY right.
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