The police can get things wrong, and it sounds like they did in this case. rape is rape, it doesn't matter if you laid back and let it happen because you thought the guy was going to kill you. That is still rape - and it's probably more sensible to do that than fight back if you thought he was going to do that. If you had fought back and he'd killed you because of it???? Shudder - not worth thinking about.
No-one deserves it, Love, not you, not anyone. As the others have said it's obviously affected you, and if it was consensual it would not still be affecting you in such a way some years later.
He had no right at all to do what he did, none whatsoever. He stole from you, and that is against the law, and morally wrong too.
i think the only thing you can do at the moment is try and forget about the police report - that was completely wrong. I don't know when this happened but changes in rape charges have happened recently where the accused now has to prove they did not rape, rather than the victim having to prove that they were raped.
I don't know really what else to say - just that I hope you take care and have a decent holiday.
Love Loz x
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