Remember that a diagnosis is a construct by academicians, and doesn't have to be seen as a framework for something inherently wrong with you. This is especially true of personality disorders. They're a bunch of symptoms that supposedly go together. I bet if someone really looked in depth, you'd have bits of lots of diagnoses, but they've settled on one of them.
I'm not really wording myself very well, but what I mean is, a diagnosis is not fully who you are. And the medical model can appear very conclusive, when in actual fact, things are far more fluid.
It's slightly different for me, in that I am not officially diagnosed with a personality disorder. I have traits from a bunch of them however. And I do remember when I first faced realistically that, yes, there is some borderline personality stuff going on with me. It felt like the bottom fell out of my world. But, over time and with therapy, I grow in more compassion for how things got to be this way, and been able to word things in more human being friendly terms, like insecure sense of self.
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