Well.....Mixed, I guess, Tokoloshe. My friend's band played last night, so of course I went to the show. I was there an hour early because he told me the wrong time...I did drink, but I drank beer. (Normally I drink whiskey and soda.) My problem is that I tend to not eat enough during the day, then I go drink......Like, last night I didn't eat dinner b/c I got done with work late, and I proceeded to drink like an idiot. So...I was pretty drunk by the evening's end.
On top of it all, I have a huge crush on the friend who was playing music last night....He works at that bar too.....and I was bitching about him to one of his coworkers because he's been avoiding me. I know that's not a big deal, but the whole damn staff knows I like him....So I am just embarassed I guess...for me and him...
I think (er, yeah...
) my friend walked me home....I really only go to this bar, so I know everyone who works there...They've called me cabs before...apparently I am the type of girl that is fine one minute, but after that last drink, I am just gone...Like, it all catches up with me. (I was told this last night.) I just sent a text to my friend who was bartending last evening apologizing for being so drunk, and he said not to sweat it.
It's not like I cause trouble, make scenes, etc. If anything, I get very self-deprecating and insist on doing stupid crap like walking home alone at 2 AM...I just get embarassed very easily compared to most...
Eh. Sorry for the long post; I am just super lost right now and feeling very down...
