thanks guys,
It went ok with my friend, it's just hard because she doesnt know that I'm really struggling right now and although she's supposed to be my best friend I can't tell her what's going on, that I still SI, that my ED is kind of out of control. She's in recovery from anorexia and I can understand why she cant deal with it... but it still hurts.
I actually had a decent afternoon with my horse, but now I'm back to feeling like this. WHY does it always come back to this?
I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE!!! totally demoralised and feeling completely hopeless. Supposed to see P tomorrow, what's the point?
I'm sorry. It's just too much.
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