It sounds as though you're very distressed. Do you have anybody close or trustworthy that you can talk to? When I have had the experience of trapped screams that can't be released, I find it helpful to sing. I can't scream, so I get SingStar/similar out and sing as loud as I can.
With the inner-screaming maybe it would help to be kind to yourself and nurture yourself in any way that you can, and stay distracted. It's important to talk to someone (both family/friend and professional) as soon as you can.
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