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Don't know what to do. *triggering substance abuse too*
i don't know what to do. i just want the screaming in my head, in my lungs, everywhere to stop.
i want to drink and drink and drink until it shuts the **** up.
i know it doesn't work.
i drank a bit, not much but a bit, a few weeks ago which teamed with the antidepressants i'm on just made me feel like total ****.
i still feel that maybe i just didn't drink enough.
i don't even like drinking that much. But if it could stop me feeling it would be worth it. Anything would be worth it.
i want to drink and drink. Take a few pills too. Not too many. Not enough to die. Just enough for it to be a problem. Maybe a few days in hospital. A few days out of it. A few days without this at any cost.
i know how stupid this is but i need need need to shut this up.
Just realised how "Girl, Interrupted" this sounds =/. Lots of alcohol and pills to "shut the **** up".
i don't know when. Soon but not now.
i can't do this.
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