I actually identify very much with what you have described here. I have been told a long time ago that I experience derealisation and depersonalisation but haven't been diagnosed with a disorder. I think a lot of people think it's a part of psychosis for me but I'm not sure.
What treatment, if any, are you having for it? I have found that antipsychotic medication helps, I'm not sure if it's because it reduces anxiety or psychosis or something else, but it seems to reduce the occurrence of the "spacing out". Though, it might make things worse for some people if it makes them feel drowsy and out of it. Are you having any therapy?
Maybe you could tell your boyfriend that he doesn't need to understand or have experienced what is happening to you, but that you do need him to believe you regardless. Then perhaps you could both try different things when you're feeling dissociated to help bring you back. It might not work - you might need treatment to see any difference, but it's worth a try? I know that sometimes when I am starting to dissociate it can help if someone I trust puts their hand on my shoulder. Some people would find that makes things worse, though.
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