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Old 25-04-2010, 04:21 PM   #41
BeautifulGarbagex3
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Join Date: Oct 2009
I am currently:

- Although my parents are divorced , my step mum is amazing most of the time.
- I am the "perfect" child
- I don't have many friends , but the ones I do are mostly awesome.
- I get "good" grades.
- I used to the bubbly , happy blonde one.
- I have a rather secure lifestyle with money
- I pretend to be the strong one
- Everyone thinks i'm in control
- Everyone comes to me for help
- The responisble one


However;
- I feel my grades aren't good enough
- I feel I can never be perfect enough
- My real mum doesn't want me and I haven't seen her since I was eight. Shes a druggie and an alcoholic. I feel I can't ever be good enough , since she didn't want me.
- I was sexually abused at 14 , but I've hid it
- I am actually the furthest out of control that is possible , even though I love it
- My grandads got cancer that is inoperable
- I've never been close to anyone, I always feel like an outisder
- I struggle with friendship
- I find it hard to vent my feelings
- I find it hard to cope
- I have to help at home a lot


I hate pain unless I cause it. I was never "emo".



It may not be pleasant ; but it's always possible - Brian Molko ♥

I was filled with incoherence .Theories of conspiracy .The whole world wants my disappearance, I'll go fighting nail and teeth .You've never seen such perseverance .Gonna make you scared of me,'Cause haemoglobin is the key - Placebo♥


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