- I live with both my parents, who are still together
- I've never been abused
- I'm always smiling and laughing
- I'm a pretty successful fencer- top 10 in my age group in Scotland
- People come to me for advice because I don't judge and always cheer them up
- The friends I have are amazing
- I have a boyfriend
- I have good grades in school
- I never hurt anyone else, even in fencing I avoid hitting hard
However:
- I've been bullied for the last 8 years
- I watched my dad have a heart attack when I was 9, then spent months convinced he was dying as he lay in a ward with stroke victims who terrified me
- I spend every day terrified my dad has a hypo
- I'm a total weakling- I can't stand pain at all
- I've lost almost all my friends over the past year
- I always feel like I'm a terrible friend, sister and daughter
Contradictions:
- Sometimes I SI to stop the pain I'm feeling... even though it doesn't work
- I can't stand pain at all, unless it's me causing it
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