All my experiences have been in the last 7 months (which I hadn’t worked out before – shows how much worse I’ve gotten this year :s). I’ve been to 2 different A&Es (the first time at home, the other times where I am at uni). First time I was so nervous about going because I’d never been to hospital for anything before and I was worried about reactions. They were fantastic. The doctor was friendly, made sure I was calm and that I had a way to get home again after. She made me see the crisis lady because it was policy and spent a lot of time with me just being really friendly. She was busy and didn’t have to do that but I’m so grateful.
Here, I have been told I will grow out of it and that it’s a stupid thing to do. Which normally I wouldn’t mind because it’s an opinion and I can see some form of reason behind it even if I don’t agree but as I wasn’t feeling good anyway it didn’t help matters. From some people I get the impression they are trying not to let personal feelings get in the way and mostly succeeding but sometimes you can tell that there is this underlying feeling. It’s like when parents say “we’re not disappointed as long as you try, we’ll love you whatever grades you get” and then you fail. They will never, ever say that they’re disappointed but you can sometimes see that look.
Some people here have been brilliant though. One insisted on calling me a taxi so I could get home rather than walking or waiting ages for a bus. Having been twice in as many weeks, there was a nurse on duty who recognised me and said hi and had a chat even though she had other people to look after.
New low for me was going by ambulance. Again, the staff were fantastic. I didn’t have much of a choice in the matter so was scared they would have a go at me for wasting time even though I didn’t know anyone had called until they arrived. But no, they were so nice and said I didn’t need to apologise for anything, it was fine.
Having said that good stuff, I do not want to end up there again!
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