i have a structure and support folder that i should look at to help. i am enrolled in the after-care program that i was in before the hospital. intensive outpatient. we meet everyday. its kinda like a partial hospitalization. i can get most of my structure there and my boyfriend and I go over my daily plan every night. he has been so supportive throughout this whole ordeal. he is awesome!
the part that feels surreal is like the everyday stuff like traffic and people talking all at once and having free time to do stuff where i would otherwise be hurting myself. i don't want to hurt myself and i don't feel the need to and that is AMAZING. first time in my life. the wonder drug anafranil has taken away the constant obsession. its like a weight has been lifted off of me.
i am terrified to go back to work, even though i haven't been cleared to return yet. i know it's coming and i am dreading it already.
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