It went well. But it was just an intake appointment. Nevertheless, I got to talk about everything just so she could see what program I needed to be in. They want to put me in DBT which I'm ok with. The only problem is that now I have a temporary job (it may become permanent) and I can't go to my appointments because I will have to work. They only offer it once every 3 months or something like that and it's at random times during the day. I don't know how working adults even attend. This job...I need it and I can't take days off or leave early for this. Even though I desperately need to. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I figured they'd at least offer them at a later time or something. There are other programs I can attend but they don't focus directly on SH. I'm not sure. I guess I'll figure it out.
Thank you to all who supported me in this thread. I have been ok since then but today my mood has dropped quite a bit.
If no one minds I would like to just vent for a minute. Hopefully it won't be long.
We're drinking (me, my mom, and a friend of ours). I was ok until the friend came over. Now nothing I have to say is important. They'd rather talk about work **** and I just feel like I'm not important. I understand that my mom just wants to get away and talk about stuff with someone who understands, but every time someone comes over it's like this. So I just drop to the background and go about my way and do my own thing. I'm really triggered right now. I'm going to try and get through it. I'll give myself an hour or so and then try to focus more intently on something else. Ok. I think I'm done. I don't really even know what I was going to say, but what I said is enough, I guess. So thanks for listening!
-Ruby
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