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Dear Everyone...
This is for all the people who've hurt me over the years...to each and every one of you!
Dear MJ,
I wish you'd just talk to me, I wish I could say things are better with me now but I can't. You'd still think I was a disgrace and a f*ckup if you passed by me. Do you think about me still? If so, are they good thoughts or is your heart filled with hatred for me? I remember how happy I was when you invited me to your house to spend the weekend and how we stayed up all night playing on Killzone and watching scary movies. Don't you remember the good times we had? Sushi dinners, prom, ninjas? Is it that you don't remember or you don't want to...? I still love you even though it kills me, and with every 'i love you' there is a scar on my heart with a scar on my skin to match. I need some closure, I'm beginning to believe the things you said about me...I hate myself much more than you ever could, so why not just come back? I still love you...your friend forever: Cami
Dear Mom,
Sometimes I wish we could just chat, like about the weather, dogs, politics, anything except what a failure I am. You always call me up crying and stuff when you're upset and I listen and don't mind to. I want to be able to tell you that I'm not okay and not have you tell me I'm being dramatic. I'd like to see you just once and not have you picking on the way I dress or my lack of makeup or that my hair's not perfect. I love you but you're driving me crazy...
~*~Cami~*~
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