Hi Emma,
I have a voice that wants me dead too. It is incredibly hard for a non-professional or someone who hasn't been through the same thing to understand that it's not YOU who wants to be dead. These aren't suicidal thoughts like, ugh, my life sucks, I don't want to be here any more; it's something from within you, but at the same time from the outside, TELLING YOU that you SHOULD be dead. That's a completely different thing.
Anyways. I know what you mean, and the psychiatrist I went to last week didn't look at me strangely for telling it was NOT me who wants these things. PM me if you want to talk.
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