[lungs locked lips locked]

I'm ready. It's taken two years, but I actually think I'm ready to take a shot at recovery.
Things have been so much better over the past few months, my life has really picked up. I'm almost completely out of my eating disorders without evening trying...with the improvements in my life and confidence and self esteem they've just sort of faded away - I'm not even calorie counting anymore. Yeah I still have some **** left with my ED's but I really think I can work through them.
Then there's self harm. I havn't done it deeply in almost 3 months, which is pretty good, I couldn't make myself do it, I don't want to anymore. I still do "normal" cuts though, just not very often - 4 times in the past month, and that's amazing for me. Thing is, it's not even life related anymore, it's pure addiction most of the time, me just searching for a reason to pick up the blade. I know I can beat it now, now that the depression isn't so bad, now that I know my friends will cheer me up and my boyfriend will get me through anything if I let him.
I'm ready to do this, I've made myself a recovery bracelet to help me achive my goal, I'm determined.
I'm finally ready to let go. wish me luck =]
*smile*