I cried whilst writing this because it's full of truth straight from my heart.
Memories
Your words sting the sweetest pain,
Your stolen kisses in the rain
Will always and forever be with me.
I’ll forever remember your tears on my cheek,
How beautiful they felt,
So warm and true.
The luxury I felt
With you curled around my back,
Your hand in my hand,
Fingers intertwined.
Soft little mumblings of protest
If I ever let them part.
Broken words of honesty in the dark,
Beautiful sweetness in pain.
You’re lips melt my skin,
And send delicious shivers down my spine.
Skin on skin,
Feeling the warmth and the softness of you.
You’re so very beautiful,
My darling boy.
I want to get lost in you,
To be in your arms,
To feel your lips on mine.
Just to get so beautifully, utterly lost
And just love you.
Life came and stole you away my dear,
Took you to a place I don’t think I can ever reach,
Not by car nor boat nor plane.
I stretch my fingers out,
As far as they can go.
But you’re always just too far.
“Too late”,
The words create an echo in my heart,
Bounce off the walls and reverberate,
Sounding again and again.
Too late too late too late.
The first time you came over my love,
I was so nervous.
But those beautiful hours we spent together,
That bound us and I knew it was true.
I loved you from the off.
So many days spent together,
It’s hard to tell them apart.
But I do remember the little things,
Like your beautiful innocence my angel,
The most precious thing I keep.
Just a handful of photographed memories,
Remind me it was real.
Lying in the darkness,
Talking for hours about everything and nothing.
The way I used to kiss you gently,
When you had those horrible dreams,
How they would stop your struggling and calm you.
How you would, and still, hold onto me,
Like I’m a life raft and you’re drowning.
Snow drifted and fell,
Heaped itself and spread.
We ran, we laughed, we threw snowballs.
I felt true happiness then,
For the first time in my life.
It bubbled and exploded inside me.
I was yours and you were mine
And nothing else seemed to matter.
Kissing in the snow
As our noses turned to ice.
Hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows,
Warm bread from the oven.
These memories I shall never lose or let be forgotten.
They’re locked up safe in my heart,
Forever. Forever.
I promised I’d always love you,
And even though I’m stupid,
Even though I made mistakes,
Even though I ruined everything,
Even though I hurt you enormously.
Not a word of that was a lie.
I will always love you my darling, sweet boy.
Only now it will be in anger and in pain,
In loss and jealousy.
But I’ll love you all the same.
Because love like this never dies.
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