4 days left
When I saw my therapist she asked if she could hug me. I let her and she hugged me really tight. I had been emotional in the session for the first time ever in front of a health professional. She really cares and looks out for me and I was telling her how muh that means to me. But I felt weird after the tearfulness and the hug, like I'd lost something or shown a weakness, a slight unsafe feeling. I don't like allowing people to get close to me. My dissertation supervisor, who is an amazing woman, also hugged me today and told me she admired me. I now have the feeling of uneasiness two-fold but I have no time to indulge these feelings now, I have to work, work, work.
My dissertation is at 4,088. I have 4 more essays to do, adding up to about 12,000 words I have to write before 4pm on Monday. I am working and trying and being really good, despite distractions like my boyfriend being an asshole, my ex messing me about and my mother telling me I'm a lost cause. I WILL DO THIS.