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Old 22-03-2010, 08:09 AM   #44
Lollirot
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Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: Australia
I am currently:

1. List the ways that you self-harm <no tip sharing, be generic>
- Cutting, burning, ODing, punching, head banging etc ED I suppose too
2. How do these behaviors help you survive?
- Yes
3. How does this behavior give me a sense of control?
- Because it's... stable. Because it's mine.
4. How/Why does this behavior release endorphins (the happy factor) and make me feel better?
- Isn't it part of the survival instinct or something. Pain gives you adrenalene so you can fight or flight?
5. How does this behavior give me revenge?
- It doesn't
6. How does this behavior punish me?
- I don't know, when I want it to it just does?
7. When and why did you start this behavior?
- 17.5 and because I couldn't deal with my depression anymore
8. How/Why does this behavior bring me affection, care, or emotional closure? (How does it comfort you? if this applies)
- Emotional closure within myself because in someways it's like "I've done what I needed to do, now I can move on". Affection and care not so much. Though I suppose some of the times I end up in hospital it's because I needed to escape reality so I guess I'm kind of relying on the hospital personnel to care for me in that regard?

Copy and paste this section, delete the lines that do not apply to you, leaving only the ones that do:
I want to express my rage at myself
I hate myself
I want to distract myself from other pain
I want to numb my feelings
I am trying to express my pain
I am trying to bring my emotions under control
I am trying to prove that I am alive
I am trying to release emotional tension
I am trying to buy myself time by focusing attention on physical rather than emotional pain


Now, think about your reason(s) for harming, list 3-5 things you could do instead.
1.
2.
3.
I don't know, I have a whole heap of skill from DBT, but when I really need to they don't work

Which of the following are true for you? (Again delete the ones that do not apply for you)
Self-harm doesn't hurt anyone but me and it really doesn't hurt me either
It's my body, I can do what I want with it
It's no big deal and shouldn't upset anyone
If I don't hurt myself this way, my pain will be worse
It keeps people away


FINALLY! I'm adding one more question to this list, what stage are you on in the 6 stages of recovery? (see hidden information for the stages and details of each)

Ummm 1, but more "my negative beliefs about THE WORLD are right"



"Watch me fault her "you're living like a disaster". She said "kill me faster", with strawberry gashes all over"


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