Well done for going so long without harming yourself - you're doing brilliantly. :)
Recovering from self-harm isn't easy - it's a big part of your life, and it takes time to change your thinking and find other healthier coping mechanisms. It's a bit like putting out a fire - you can put out the main fire but sometimes smaller fires will crop up somewhere while you're doing that. And it takes time to sort that out.
At the moment it sounds like you're just struggling a bit with being back in the self-harm mindset - but you can get through out. What helped you make the decision to try and stop hurting yourself originally?
Can you print out a list of distractions for yourself? I know sometimes it's difficult to remember what to do when you're very frustrated and self-harming seems like the only option - maybe if you had a list printed out for yourself somewhere you can see a lot it would remind you of other ways to release that stress?
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