Originally Posted by
fangurl
I just feel like, blah now
I just feel like the last 6 months have been a waste of time really, I wanted to prove myself to everyone that I'd stopped doing it like
The only ones I've told at the moment are my two best mates and my mate I'm staying with at the moment and I feel guilty cos they're upset that I've done it
I know that I didn't mean to upset them and I know they're upset cos they care about me and I know they know I didn't mean to upset them
God, I'm so confused at the moment
They're not wasted, not at all. They're still six months without giving in, and that's a big accomplishment!
I recently had my first slip in three years, and I got really mad with myself. But then I try to think of those years were I stayed away from it, and I'm proud of myself. You should be too, 'cause it's hard to stay away. Sometimes it can be very hard.
As you say, there's not wonder why your friends are upset - they care about you and just want what's best for you. But you shouldn't worry about upsetting them, in times like this you don't need more worries than you already have. :)