1. List the ways that you self-harm <no tip sharing, be generic>
Cutting/burning
2. How do these behaviors help you survive?
Feel more in control, reduces suicidal thoughts
3. How does this behavior give me a sense of control?
I can control how much i cut and how much i hurt
4. How/Why does this behavior release endorphins (the happy factor) and make me feel better?
It helps reduce the emotional pain but i dont feel much better though
5. How does this behavior give me revenge?
It gives me revenge on myself cause i hate myself
6. How does this behavior punish me?
By causing pain, bleeding and hurt
7. When and why did you start this behavior?
Started when i was 13 (im now 33). Started it as a result of not being able to deal with abuse. And i wanted to release frustration and hatred towards myself.
8. How/Why does this behavior bring me affection, care, or emotional closure? (How does it comfort you? if this applies)
It doesnt
Copy and paste this section, delete the lines that do not apply to you, leaving only the ones that do:
I want to show that I own my body
I want to express my rage at myself
I hate myself
I want to distract myself from other pain
I want to numb my feelings
I have a message to give that I cant' say directly
I am asking for help
I want to be rescued
I want to cleanse myself
I want to somehow atone for my sins
I want to express my shame
I am trying to express my pain
I am taking over where my abuser left off
I am retaliating against myself for telling secrets
I am trying to bring my emotions under control
I am trying to prove that I am alive
I am trying to manage my flashbacks/memories
I am trying to release emotional tension
I need a release valve
I am trying to buy myself time by focusing attention on physical rather than emotional pain
Now, think about your reason(s) for harming, list 3-5 things you could do instead.
1. Write
2. Talk to someone
3. Exercise
Which of the following are true for you? (Again delete the ones that do not apply for you)
It's my body, I can do what I want with it
If I don't hurt myself this way, my pain will be worse
I need to be punished for what I did
It just shows how bad a person I am
It keeps people away
The scars are there for a reason, they remind me of my shame/need for punishment
FINALLY! I'm adding one more question to this list, what stage are you on in the 6 stages of recovery? (see hidden information for the stages and details of each)
Im on stage 2
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